Between all the sunlight in the middle of summer and an increased dosage of an SSRI, my poor brain had just a bit too much seratonin the last couple weeks.
The upside (early on): I focused well, got lots of writing and work done. Planned ahead and followed through.
The downside: I craved simple carbs because they keep the seratonin engine going. (yes, that’s why we crave carb-rich foods in the dark of winter). These foods are not fat-burning and that’s what I really need focus on at the moment diet wise.
Later in the seratonin trip, I became hypo-manic. The first symptom of a bit too much seratonin (odd that I know this when most of my life I have too little seratonin) is a return of my insomnia.
As the sleep drops below 6 hours/night my thinking becomes fuzzier and eventually I kind of drive myself into a slightly manic state. It’s not bad for the around me (I think), but the trip going on in my brain is no fun. I start focusing rather obsessively on things that might or might not be important. I acknowledge needs without necessarily satisfying them.
So I spent 2 days thinking “I’m thirsty. I should get a glass of water.” immediately followed by: “as soon as I’m done with ________.”
Hence the dehydration that rather knocked me on my butt this week.
Since I was not feeling well, I did atleast do the smart thing and stay home from the gym this week. Today will be my first workout in a week.
I’ve learned that when my body/mind is not eager to go to the gym, it is wise that I listen. I’m telling myself that I need the rest more than the movement. I’ve learned that when I’m healthy, the drive to hit the weights will return.
And with that, I’m back on track.